A letter to my wife......

Wow boys and girls, it's been a while. I always promise to write more on this, but then get busy and forget, blah, blah, blah...so I am going to buckle down and write a little something.
A couple of days ago I sent a status update on my facebook about singing in weddings and yet not having one of my own. Maybe some saw it as a pity party, maybe some felt bad for me, but either way, I thought I should shed some light on how I feel about being 32 and single.
I most say it's not something I would have thought for my life at this age when I was younger. I always thought I would be married and have about 2-3 kids by now. God has totally rearranged my life and in a good way. There have been things I have been able to do by God's grace since going to UF, and I look back and know how difficult it would have been if I was married, kids, etc.
I truly believe in the sovereignty of God and that He has the perfect bride for me. I know some people are blessed with singleness their entire life, but I have a desire for marriage and believe that God is growing and sanctifying me and my bride to be for one another. I pray for her everyday that God is keeping her and protecting her for that day. So....I thought I would give you a little inside of what i think about her (people say I don't open up enough), so here it is. A letter to my future wife:

To the one I've waited for:
I just wanted to write this to you, to tell you first of all that I have always loved you. I have always prayed for you. I have longed for the day to hold you and tell you everything is going to be ok. I have dated other girls, some of which I thought could be you. I may have told them "I love you," and not knowing what true love is yet. I understand that in marriage it is a picture of Christ and His church, and I see no higher honor than to portray that picture with you. I'm sorry if I have wasted time with silly things before meeting you. I'm sorry if I have made promises to other girls that should have been saved for you. I'm sorry I spoke to anyone else in the way I should only speak with you. I'm sorry for spending memories with other people that were reserved for you. I am a fragile and sinful man who does not deserve you, but I look forward to making new memories with you. Talking with you, praying with you, laughing with you, singing with you, crying with you, dancing with you, making mistakes with you, and all of it being under the goodness of God's grace.
I can honestly say I have remained pure for you my love. I can look at you on our wedding day and honestly know that God has kept me for you and you for me. So know I am thinking of you, and praying for you. I love you and promise to give you all I am, but please know that Christ is my first love. Thank you for waiting for me, it's been a work in progress.....
Truly yours,
Heyward