A letter to my wife......

Wow boys and girls, it's been a while. I always promise to write more on this, but then get busy and forget, blah, blah, blah...so I am going to buckle down and write a little something.
A couple of days ago I sent a status update on my facebook about singing in weddings and yet not having one of my own. Maybe some saw it as a pity party, maybe some felt bad for me, but either way, I thought I should shed some light on how I feel about being 32 and single.
I most say it's not something I would have thought for my life at this age when I was younger. I always thought I would be married and have about 2-3 kids by now. God has totally rearranged my life and in a good way. There have been things I have been able to do by God's grace since going to UF, and I look back and know how difficult it would have been if I was married, kids, etc.
I truly believe in the sovereignty of God and that He has the perfect bride for me. I know some people are blessed with singleness their entire life, but I have a desire for marriage and believe that God is growing and sanctifying me and my bride to be for one another. I pray for her everyday that God is keeping her and protecting her for that day. So....I thought I would give you a little inside of what i think about her (people say I don't open up enough), so here it is. A letter to my future wife:

To the one I've waited for:
I just wanted to write this to you, to tell you first of all that I have always loved you. I have always prayed for you. I have longed for the day to hold you and tell you everything is going to be ok. I have dated other girls, some of which I thought could be you. I may have told them "I love you," and not knowing what true love is yet. I understand that in marriage it is a picture of Christ and His church, and I see no higher honor than to portray that picture with you. I'm sorry if I have wasted time with silly things before meeting you. I'm sorry if I have made promises to other girls that should have been saved for you. I'm sorry I spoke to anyone else in the way I should only speak with you. I'm sorry for spending memories with other people that were reserved for you. I am a fragile and sinful man who does not deserve you, but I look forward to making new memories with you. Talking with you, praying with you, laughing with you, singing with you, crying with you, dancing with you, making mistakes with you, and all of it being under the goodness of God's grace.
I can honestly say I have remained pure for you my love. I can look at you on our wedding day and honestly know that God has kept me for you and you for me. So know I am thinking of you, and praying for you. I love you and promise to give you all I am, but please know that Christ is my first love. Thank you for waiting for me, it's been a work in progress.....
Truly yours,
Heyward

It's been awhile

Well boys and girls, guess who's back......
I guess alot has happened since last I posted. So I'll see if I can remember:
I turned another year old. That's pretty exciting I guess. The years are kind of a blur after a while though.
I'm still single, but really have a desire not to be. Its different than before. I was more patient and not really caring when I would be involved with someone, but now I feel as though I need someone to complete my walk with the Lord. I dont' mean that as if my life is not complete in Christ, but with my ministry, it would be nice to have a help mate in my life to share everything with.
Hmm....oh yeah I sang the national anthem for the Magic vs. Raptors playoff game. That was alot of fun. Especially to get there early and see the players warm up before anyone was allowed in the arena. I really didn't get nervous until I walked to center court and they announced my name. All in all it was a night i will never forget and I would do it again in a heartbeat.
For those of you that know my niece and nephew (Jayden and Jasmine) they are cute as ever and doing great. I love them to death and look forward to everytime I get to see them. I just love the way they call me Uncle Heyward. The small things really get you when you get older.
So right now I am reading through the gospels and really trying to learn more about the Jesus Christ the man who walked the earth. I love the gospels because there is so much knowledge and wisdom spoken from the mouth of Christ . We actually have the words He spoke while here on earth!!! If that doesnt blow your mind, what will? I'm also reading a book called "Worship Matters" by Bob Kaufflin. I love it and recommend it to anyone involved in music at your church. It is so practical in nature and yet has so much truth and scripture behind it. I read it every night and can't wait to get to it.
I am going to try and update this more. Maybe once a week, but we'll see.
One more thing, I got an offer to record tracks in Orlando to put out to different churches. So thats something that can keep me even more busy. Ha.
Thanks for reading this and stay classy San Diego.

So.....

I didn't realize people read this until someone asked when I would be posting another blog, so maybe I will do this more often. Make myself more of an open book.
So last week I was in Vegas for a week, and if you have never been there, its a crazy place. This was my fifth trip, and I guess the most relaxed and fun. For those that don't know what I do (besides being worship leader at Riverbend) I work for a wholesale company. We sell the merchandise you see on TV. Call now for 19.95, but wait there's more!! Yeah that stuff.
So twice a year there is a variety trade show in Vegas that is huge. It's held in the Sands convention center, and I can't even explain how many booths are there. So we have a booth where we show the merchandise we have that is hot right now. So that's why I go to Vegas.
While I was there, I saw and talked to Wayne Brady ( who's line is it anyway, and don't forget the lyrics.) He was a cool guy, but was shorter and skinnier than I thought he would be.
I also saw Lil'John. How weird is that? haha. That was at the Planet Hollywood. It was also beautiful weather instead of the 100-103 degree weather I get to see when I go back in August.
So that was my trip.
This week has mostly been a chance to get back in the swing of things. It's Friday and tonight I have a softball game and then tomorrow I may be venturing to Orlando for Islands of Adventure. It's nice when you have passes. However, part of me is wanting to just relax and do nothing. Haha.
Right now I am reading the book of Acts, and also the book by John Piper "Seeing and Savoring Jesus Christ." Basically it's a book giving a more in depth and intimate picture of Jesus Christ and what He did and continues to do. It's very good and would recommend it to anyone. I would even say pass it on to your lost friends. Yes I said lost friends. We can not be so self-centered that we are not permeating the world around us with the love of Christ. We were once alienated from God, and yet reconciled through His Son. Share this with those around you!! Do not be afraid, God has not given us a spirit of fear.
I hope to write more in this blog so stay tuned. Also, for my last blog where I wrote about me being single, please know I am trusting in the Lord more everyday, and can honestly say I do not believe I am called to be single. I do care for someone very much and would do anything to keep her in my life for the rest of it. But the Lord knows my heart and who it is....we will leave it at that.
Have a great weekend everyone. Be safe. Love one another and seek Christ.
Peace, love and hair grease,
Heyward

leaving for vegas.....

So i'm leaving for Las Vegas Friday morning and I think this will be my fifth time going. It's always an interesting time whenever I go. You never know what to expect. If you have never been to Vegas, it's a cool place to visit, and you actually see alot of families there. You also see alot of sin. People everywhere fulfilling sinful pleasures that are so temporary. I am always reminded of God's goodness when I go. Anyway...I will be there for a week and then come back home the following Friday.
Soon as I get home, I need to head to the church for Luke and Lynn's wedding rehearsal. Crazy. I am pretty sure I am eligible for a world record for most weddings sang in. I actually looked online to find out. People always ask me if I will sing at my wedding (Lord willing I get married.) I don't think I will, but I would love to sing to her a song I write sometime.
It does get old when people keep telling me "don't worry, she's out there somewhere." Hahaha...of course she is. I dont believe I am called to singleness and I also believe I am ready to be married, and to be honest I get more and more anxious to be married. I have loved and lost love, and have felt both sides of it. I am ready to move on with the rest of my life and share it with someone. So before I get all mushy, just know that I am ready to love someone, I'm just waiting for that person to love me back.
Well I will try and post from Vegas. Hope everyone who reads this is doing well. Send me some love will ya?

First time

Well today is my first blog. Exciting huh? I thought this is a good way to talk about things that I usually don't. Also maybe to vent when need be.
Last night I was watching Spiderman 3 and something caught my attention. If you have seen the movie, you know about the part where the symbiotic host takes over the body of Peter Parker. Its something he can not escape and no matter how hard he tried, it consumes him to the point of coming to the end of himself.
In a weird way, this is what sin does to us. It consumes us to the point that we no longer realize its a part of us anymore. It's a temporary pleasure for a life long struggle and desire to seek something great in our lives. Sin is tempting and very attractive for a season, but will fade away.
The Bible says that God hates sin, and yet those who proclaim His salvation in their lives are living a life of sin. They don't want to admit to it, but would rather point the finger at everyone else. God said I would rather you be cold than lukewarm, and if this is so, He will spit you out of his mouth. It also says that a man goes back to His sin like a dog returns to His vomit.
So, this is just something on my mind today.
Hmm....it's only Wednesday, so let's see what the rest of the week brings. Have a blessed week everyone. Umm....if anyone reads this.